denial ain't just a river in egypt
i'm tetering on the edge of completely losing my mind or just diving in.
had numerous realizations tonight whilst typing up the 'stuff':
a. i've funded all of this with free labor and with sales of my own artwork.
b. and by working literally 80 hours a week. at the very least.
see, part of me just doesn't care. "so what? it's gotta happen somehow."
and the the other part is just thinking, "you stupid twit!! omg!"
{added later: ok to be fair, maybe that could be considered whining and over-exaggerated... not the full truth. i guess i've broken even. i love the next's day's perspective.}
being human is a bizarre experience, no?
{someday eva's gonna get back at me...}
