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today was one of those, holy-$#@*-i'm-in-the-thick-of-it kind of days. several things. i ended my church boycott today after 2 looong months. it was nice to be back. second, i met with three other photographers to figure out the exact photographs we'll be using for a collaborative show in september. (more details on that later.) next, off to re-shoot a couple images for the project in question. then, a major toddler tantrum to deal with. 50,000 emails. some phone calls. more emails. and swimming. lots and lots of swimming.
the only thing is, i'm left looping through my day. re-playing conversations and actions. trying not to make someone else wrong because we disagree. allowing myself to let another person to be ful-filled instead of just being jealous and petty. wishing i'd had sunscreen on. i know it's human nature and all to do it, but it's hard to shut it off sometimes. that incessant re-play chatter.
it's august now. so many things are in progress at this moment and time is my most precious dimension right now. time with the kids. with my galleries. with my joys. my panic. everything. wallowing in self-pity, whininess, and my lack of cool camera equipment does me no good whatsoever.
it's all a good struggle. the kind i want to be having in life. would i rather be stressing about how many accounts i have cooking over-seas for some one else? hell no. i'd rather be right here in dallas. motivating folks to invest in local artists and their art. being generous. i trust the universe that it will all work out.
