on being married
being married is hard. so much to think about and be committed to. no wonder everyone breaks up. there's the issue of ill-timed attraction to someone else. there's kids. there's real life drama about money and lifestyle and faith... it's weird. if i'd known all this when i was 21 and about to get hitched, hmmm, maybe i would have waited. doubtful, but maybe. it's a good thing i married paul. he is a great guy simply because he allows me to feel the way i do about whatever and accepts me in spite of it. i'm not at fault because i'm attracted to someone else. or at fault because i'm a nut. and there's nothing wrong with me in his eyes because the kids are temporarily driving me out of my mind. i count myself to be a lucky gal with paul at my side.
