twilight zone
it's odd i even came. but good. i keep feeling myself fall into the same old patterns with the same old people. and i see everyone else doing it. it's almost like 10 years of amazing achievements like: backpacking europe, living in a tent in yosemite, getting a degree in chemistry at an uber academic university, eloping with a rock star, giving birth to two beautiful children (one at home), and pursuing art with a supernatural vigor just don't matter. it's a visit to a time in my life where i didn't fit in. (isn't that why i left?) some of those folk never knew me and never will. some, like a.t., j.g., t.a., c.c., a.j., p.s. really are happy to see me and i am glad to see they are moving on in life, taking care of business and being authentic in their pursuit of whatever. that gives me joy.
